Pippi just got back from the vet. I was concerned because she was so lethargic and her gums look so pale. I just keep thinking of all the blood washing down the drain when I was gently bathing her. They flushed out her wound, gave her a shot of Covenia and told me that there is a possibility of brain damage due to trauma. She’s just not “here” right now. I have her in Jedi’s old cage and will just keep an eye on her. The hole is deep and there is tissue trauma and maybe she just needs to regroup.
I thought about just chucking it all in. Hanging it all up. Stepping down and letting someone else deal with the feral and stray cat problem in this area- which doesn’t seem to be letting up anytime soon. But when I told Mike last night how I was thinking, he kind of let me have it. He told me that I am these cats only hope and if I hang it up, then the bully wins. He won’t know (or care) that I have stepped down but other cats in the future will know when they find themselves with no where to turn and get dumped into the river, or the wilderness or whatever. Do I want that on my head? Mike asked.
I don’t. I’m just sad. I lost Fiona, GOofy Gus, and Piper within a very short time- all wonderful cats in their own right. Goof couldn’t help it if somewhere along his life a person scared the living pee out of him. He had a few months of just not being terrorized but his fear for humans seemed to intensify regardless.
Thank you to ALL of you once again for stepping out to contact me in all sorts of ways and helping me get a bit of handle on this vet debt we have. Thanks for reading this blog- believing in what we do-and helping me over the very rough spots (especially lately)
I don’t know what your set up is, but would a wildlife camera help keep watch on the area? They make them with infrared, so you could monitor at night, too.
Some day you may want to retire from helping the strays full-time, but you’ll do it on your terms, not those of evil or apathetic people. Ceasing to work for the cats under those conditions will make you sadder. But you’ve done a great deal, and many cats are alive because of you and Mike. Those cats who passed away in your care left life loved and comforted.
I’m so sorry for your losses. Please take some comfort in the fact that all your cats have at least known love and comfort from you. I’m sorry I don’t have any money until the end of the month, but I’ll send some then. Love I send now. I’m glad Mike is better than feared!
I know you are feeling like this is such a thankless job! It’s not, you do more good for these fur babies and even if it’s for a blink of an eye, they are loved and have you to help them cross the bridge. You will know in your heart when you are truly done! We are here to support you in any way that we can! Praying for you and Mike.