Just trying to work through each day and deal with all the emotions that arrive, the best I can. Doesn’t help that our anniversary and his birthday are approaching soon. Hoping once I can get through those days without shaking apart, I might be able to get through the rest of them as well. I feel like a ship that has lost her rudder right now and each day brings new challenges.
Kota and I go for walks (weather permitting) and Kota and Molly are still following me around the house, ready to put their therapeutic paw out whenever it is needed.
The sanctuary cats are doing well. We had a power outage the other day following a fierce wind and now the heated cat beds are dead in the water. I’m not sure what happened? I have flipped all the breakers- turned off switches, replugged in the beds and they are still cold as stone. Not good when temps are dipping down into the 30’s at night. I didn’t realize how much I depended on Mike to fix things for us and now that he isn’t here- I have to figure it out for myself or bug a friend of his to help me out. I hate to be beholden on people like this as I know Jack has his own life and troubles to deal with.
I miss him a lot even though I know he is better off where he is now. just hoping as days pass, I will get my smile back and deal with less tears and heartache.
Mary Anne, You are stronger then you know, those of us that have been around and stalking and your kitties know this to be true. Trust your instincts, trust in God. Trust me if I can get thru all of this that I am going thru, you can get thru this. Mie is watching over you and I am sure that his friends are glad to help you, (hint) just watch over their shoulder or ask them to show you how to fix! You will do ok, you are a survivor!
XOXOXO
When someone leaves, we miss them in all ways, emotionally, intellectually and practically. I think some of the people I knew would be gratified to know that I could use their practical help in so many ways, just as much as their moral support and companionship. We are all so connected that we don’t realise it until one of us is gone. You will survive and grow. These are growing pains, as much as they are grieving pains.
(You may need a surge protector for your appliances. I’m not sure how to repair the cat-beds, though.)