What do you tell someone, who has just been told that they have six months to live? Mike is home and tonight, the Hospice Nurse visited. She asked him if he had any questions for her. He said he had one (his confusion has lifted) He said he wanted to know what Hospice was?

As gently, and professionally and compassionately as she could she explained to him that this was end of life for him. That the general consensus of all his doctors, surgeons and specialists came down to a timeline of six months to live.

This time, he understood and I saw him get really mad and he told her: “I don’t feel like a six monther!’ (I don’t know if that is even a word). After she left, he just got quiet and neither Dave or I had a clue what to say to him. How would I feel if someone had delivered this news to me? Hard to say.

I have the emergency packet of all these pills- morphine, pills for agitation, pills to sleep, pills to stop nausea, pills for shortness of breath, and what they call the End Pill when he is no longer able to swallow. Gone are all restrictions on his life, He was told to Live Large and that is exactly what we are going to do and take it day by day. He had steak, baked potato, peas and broccoli for dinner and for the first time in about 6 months, I watched him want to eat. He wants a GIANT bag of peanut M&M’s to munch on and to start drinking diet pepsi again. Ok Mike, let’s do this and see where it goes.