Imagine my surprise this morning at 4:00 a.m. when I went out to feed to see Magoo and Ash lying underneath my apple trees! I was so stunned at first, I should have reacted quicker. I did manage to get Magoo to come to me (thank God for our bonding sessions). Ash is still out there. She ran 7 times around the main enclosure to get away from me, stress pooping the whole way. I was not chasing her, just trying to see if she would come to food.

I have been out all morning, there is no sign of her. I am supremely worried, this is her first time outside and she has such a high level of PTSD, She has to be terrified. I have seven traps set out- all visible from windows of the house. I can’t let her brother out- he is white and these extreme triple digit temps, he would be strong in the running for Squamous cell carcinoma of the eartips. I am glad I at least had bonded to Magoo to be able to get close enough to him to grab him. I have left one way into the house, trying to be as safe as possible in doing so. If you happen to land on my blog and see this post please send prayers for Ash. She has to be so out of her element and terrified right now.

They did on the build, try to shore up all openings under my home, but cats are crafty and one has dug a hole under the wire and wood so I am hoping she is under the house right now and safe and will be fairly cool today. I can’t do anything other than what I have done. She will not go to any human (even me). I have to hope that she will find her way into a trap or into the house. This is all my fault. It has been so hot here that last night, I left all the windows wide open- usually shut the ones not protected from inquisitive kitties getting out.

Magoo is out of sorts, leading me to believe that not only does he miss his sister, but they were out well after dark last night.

“Come on God, please don’t let anything happen to her. She has survived hell on earth almost a year ago. She is afraid of her own shadow and I hope and pray that she is under the house. Please just give me a glimpse of her today so that I know she is okay. I really don’t want to lose her after all the strides we have made together- God, bring her home please??”

-Amen-